My heart breaks for those we know and love who choose their needs and wants and what makes them feel good over their family, biological or not.
One day you are going to look back and see all that you missed because we are not what you wanted at the time. We didn't make you feel the way you wanted to feel and we didn't do all the things you wanted us to do. One day you will look back and see all the people you really don't know and we won't know you either because you chose to keep yourself away. One day you will look back and see all the people who have grown up without you knowing. They will be different and like strangers because you chose your friends and your attitude over us. You wanted people to like you for who you thought you were and didn't give anyone a chance to know the real you. One day you will find the real you who we all knew was there but you wouldn't let us in and now we will always be on the outside.
Your family is where you come from, came from and will be apart of your whole life. Nobody says you have to love these people but how can you push yourself away so that you don't know them at all?
When you have children, your gonna want them to know their cousins but won't because you won't know them either. Your children are gonna ask you questions about when you grew up and what kind of things did you do as a kid with your family and you won't have answers because you pushed yourself away.
You will be an aunt, a cousin, a 2nd and 3rd cousin, sister, mom, grandma and you won't know any of those people because you chose your own path away from your family. You will be a stranger!
Is that what you want? To be a stranger? To have people who are supposed to have hearts full of love for you but they only know you as an acquaintance? My heart breaks for you and I pray for you that one day you will follow the path you were meant to take and that will be apart of your history. You don't have to follow in your history's footprints but you should at least leave some prints so others may know you.
