Recently in Life Group we were asked if we felt fulfilled. Do we feel fulfilled in our life as a whole, in our church, in our family, and in our marriage. The funny thing is that I feel fulfilled in all areas except at church.
This got me thinking!
I have never asked myself if I was fulfilled at church. Some people may say that you shouldn't go to church to be fulfilled but I look at it a bit different. I go there to worship God and while there I should be fulfilled and energized to take on the world for God. I do go there to worship but I don't get anything from being there except falling asleep and thinking about the family time we miss out on because we are sitting at church. The only time I look forward to going to church is when we are helping in the Kingdom Kids area.
I know this all sounds horrible but when I volunteer at the food bank, I am totally and completely fulfilled! I don't feel judged, I don't feel used, I am a volunteer just like most of the people there. The people that go there for food for the most part are very appreciative. I work hard and I feel like I accomplished something even though you will never see that I did anything. The people there need volunteers and every Thursday they say hello, they know my name and they thank me for coming in. This is how I get fulfilled!
When I go to church I dont' feel this at all! I feel judged, I feel that if you don't take part in something then you aren't apart of the IN crowd. If you question something they look down upon you and they only appreciate me when I'm doing something because that is just one more thing they dont' have to do.
What a sad day when you feel more fulfilled out in the real world than you do in your own church!
I feel the best when I am out serving and doing something to show God's love to people. Working in Kingdom Kids and the Food Bank are places that I love and long to be!
I think many people feel this way no matter what the church...thus you should personally evaluate what church means to you. Why do you go to church? What would like to get out of it? Why did you even start going to church in the first place? Etc... You should have something in your life that is spiritually challenging you and encouraging you to grow (maybe that's your life group, Bible study, etc). Great post by the way, it has really got me thinking. I think the reality is that you are fulfilled when you are serving God and doing what God has called you to do.
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