Looking back

As a mom, days can be trying and days can be AMAZING!!!  As I look back at my time as a mother, I know I could have done a lot of things better.  As I look at my time as a wife, I know I could have done better also.  But I can change that at any time and all I need is God.  He is my strength and my guide.  He is my father and creator.  I can do anything through him who gives me strength.

I was reading some blogs last night and found two that talked about Psalm 31.  So I picked up my bible and decided to read it.  WOW!!!  This is a big wake up call for me.  I have a lot to work on as a wife, mother and most of all a child of God.  But I know God has something to teach me through all this and I'm very excited to see what it is.  After reading it twice, once to myself and once out loud to Darren, I think I actually love this passage from the bible.  What a great goal to have for yourself, to be a woman that God wants you to be. 

It means a lot of different things to me.  I read it and think, ummm yea like I am ever gonna do those things , and ummmm probably not!!  But as I think about this verse all day, I know I could do those things if I try.  Of course some of those things are not really things I can do where I live and will prob never do but the idea of it is what interests me.

I think about my job as a mother and think of things I can do different in the future.  I know I need to put them before many other things in my life and that is gonna take some work.  I'm gonna have to have it at the front of my mind always reminding myself that my kids are only little once and I need to embrace that. 

I love to look at my kids when they dont' know it and watch them.  The things they do and the things they say.  It's one of the many joys in my life and I thank God often for them.

Right now I am planning on writing a letter to each of my kids to put in their baby books to let them know how much they mean to me now and always. 

I think this passage in the bible is going to make a big difference in my life and the journey may be hard but the outcome will be glorious just as our Father is.