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oh how the things in life can wear (sp) you out. These past couple weeks have been exhausting.

 My grandma passed away last week and emotions came out that I didn't know where there.  I have always loved my grandma even though I have never been close to her.  My heart ached for all the things that led up to her passing away.  I don't have a problem understanding how God can allow someone he loves to go through all this bc I know he he loves us more than we can ever know.  But just thinking about what she must have been feeling and being unresponsive, well what could she hear and see and think.  This is what breaks my heart.  I can't imagine what she was feeling and thinking on the otherside.  I also ache for my mom and my aunt as they have both lost their mom.  I can't imagine how that must feel to lose your mom.  It's different when you don't see them for long periods of time but when you know you will never see them again.  And it's your MOM!!!  ugh, my heart will always ache for them.  I have cried soo hard since she passed and I pray that she truely knew Jesus so that she can be with him for eternity.