Friends of Seasons

It's interesting how you grow up learning to make friends and no matter what happens in your life, you still always are making friends. 

I have spent the last 4 months pondering the meaning of friendship and what it means to me and how it fits into my life.  I have come to the conclusion that you def CAN have too many friends.  It is possible to always make friends but you only have soo much room in your life for lifetime friends.

Looking at my contacts on my phone, email, and facebook, I realize that I know alot of people.  More than I ever thought I knew to be honest.  As I look at each of these lists, I think about the relationship I have with each person and weather it's a real friendship or not.  To my sadness and surprise, I don't have very many friendships that I can see lasting a lifetime.  I'm ok with that though because it makes me feel less stressed. 

When you have soo many people on your list you feel like you have to be in contact with each person at least once a week or even once a month.  I honestly dont' have time for that.  This may sound selfish and so be, it but I have a life, a family, and a father that I love and they will all be there weather I have friends or not so these are my priorities.

I have thought alot about the types of friendships I have and who I have trust with and who I have tried to have trust with.  I thought about the friendships I have worked hard at and got nothing in return.  I never intended to have a friendship where I expected anything but you at least hope for something on the other end. 

All these things have made me come to the realization that friends come and go whether you want them to or not and there is nothing you can do.  Just like seasons, things change and you do your spring cleaning and let some go. 

I am to that point right now where I have worked very hard to build friendships with people and nothing!  So just like seasons, I will move on and watch them go by.  Happy to see them at the beginning of the season, and then happy to see them go at the end.